Regret to Remember
I was walking on my own thinking, didn't know where to go, didn't know how it comes, then suddenly I met you in that moment, didn't know who you are, didn't know what to say.
I thought I would be dying that day, but I never saw your sadness, so I always reminded my self, "You must be strong, whatever you are".
Until the day that I would never see you again, eventhough in dream.
I thought I would stand by you forever, but not all of my wish would be granted. I guessed I would always saw your smile, so I didn't need to regret. I guessed I would have a lot of time, so I always waited for the perfect time to have a chat with you. But, that's all just a bull shit. I spent all of my time with a wasted thing. I didn't use it to the best I can.I didn't. I just can sat and saw you behind. I can't reached you, whatever I did.
I always convinced my self, that was just a crush. But, as long as I spent time with you, I felt another feeling. Not only crush. Unfortunately, I realized it when you was gone. When I ran away from you, didn't say anything, just ran away. I confessed that I regret all of what I've done before. I want to say sorry to him, but he had just gone, I would never see him again, never.
I was too scared to hope to see you again. I am not a brave girl. That was a big prayer to grant. It was enough to see your smile through photo, enough.
I hope for the best happens in your life today, I prayed to You, Allah, please allow me to hope that the people arround you can make you smile, but not for me. Let me to walk on my own thinking again.
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